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The worst thing about being naked—and then

being hit by a car—is that road rash

is a problem for skin. Why was I naked

in the middle of the road at noon? I am glad

you asked, imaginary other half of this

conversation! I have no idea! Some characteristics

of bipolar disorder include dissociation, hallucinations,

and fugue states, so sometimes I wake up in places

I didn’t go to sleep!

So. There I am. Nude. Splayed out on a car like a slutty

chicken, and I’m screaming about the government

conspiracy to take away my feet. Not my real feet.

Just my brain feet. I’m about six inches away

from the concrete when I realize, in slow motion,

like the exact opposite of a rhinoceros attack,

«This is not how I imagined my life would turn out.» When I was young, I broke

both my ankles jumping off a roof because

I was sure a cape would enable me to fly. My parents

attributed this to my strong imagination. Last year,

my therapist called it a delusion. I fail

to see the difference. Also, I really can fly

and see the future and make stupid people leave

coffee shops with my mind. Forty-three percent of the time.

Sometimes I see people as colors. For instance, this guy

right here is purple, which means he just got a promotion.

Or a blowjob. A blowmotion, if you will. The point is,

here is a list of things my brain has told me

to do: join a cult; start a cult; become a cabinet maker;

kill myself, so, in essence, become a cabinet maker;

break into, and then paint, other people’s houses; have sex

with literally everyone who reminds me of my mother;

fight people who are much fightier than me, like

the cops, so, in essence, kill myself. I think a lot

about killing myself, not like a point on a map but rather

like a glowing exit sign at a show that’s never been

quite bad enough to make me want to leave. See, when I’m up

I don’t kill myself because, holy shit, there’s so much left

to do! When I’m down I don’t kill myself because then

the sadness would be over, and the sadness is my old paint

under the new. The sadness is the house fire or the broken

shoulder: I’d still be me without it but I’d be so boring.

They keep telling me seeing things that aren’t technically there

is called «disturbed cognitive functioning.» I call it

«having a superpower.» Once, I pulled over on the 110 freeway

and jumped out of my old Jeep because I saw it burst

into flames twenty seconds before it actually burst

into flames. I knew my girlfriend and I would be

together because she turned bright pink the first time

she saw me. I know tomorrow is going to come

because I’ve seen it. Sunrise is going to come,

all you have to do is wake up. The future has been

at war, but it’s coming home so soon. The future

looks like a child in a cape. The future is the map

and the treasure. The future looks just like gravity:

everyone is slowly drifting toward everyone else.

We are all going to be part of each other

one day. The future is a blue sky and a full

tank of gas. I saw the future, I did,

and in it I was alive.

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