Текст песни Refill (Lou The Human) с переводом

And I still stay high, just more lowkey now

I quit the lean and OE, it only slowed me down

Been tryna get a hold of myself 'cause you would never hold me down

My new girls miss the old me now, yeah

And shit, I think I hate myself, yeah

Like lately I just ain’t myself, yeah

Been on the road tryna save everybody else

And I can’t even save myself but shit, uh

Been disgusted in the mirror, tryna function at this function

I ain’t even wanna be here but I gotta show face more

I gotta see my place more

I’m used to being homeless, I don’t ever like to stay long, yeah

So how could I expect you to wait

When I been wakin' up lately and forgettin' the state

Stay in a daze so I’m spaced out, forgettin' the day

Tryna remember why the fuck I even get in this game

It’s like, everytime I see my nieces they older

Ain’t even seein' 'em grow up, what if they needed a shoulder?

And the girl I love is still on the block I left

Think my old friend is smokin' rocks again

I just wish I could talk to him

I just wish we could start again to relive this shit

Before the city took our innocence

Tryna play the hand I’m dealt, from where they dealin' shit

I can’t even deal with shit, fuck rap and a deal and shit

I feel guilty, my old homies is still in the field, really

Probably screamin' fuck me, so I don’t know how to feel, really

They all say they love me, look around they ain’t still with me

A lot that’s concealed in me, a lot of it’s ill

Gettin' high so the pain’ll stop

When I was younger, I used to think I could save the block

Now I’m spending bands like I don’t know how to save a lot

My ex say I changed a lot, I can’t even say that it’s not true

All this fame, I forgot Lou, all this drink, I forgot you

At least I did until the mornin'

I used to go places people knew me so I could feel important

I used to want people to see me and now I can’t avoid it

And it still ain’t fillin' this void

I don’t know what’s real anymore

I’m lyin' to people I love, I don’t think I feel anymore

A lost boy with lost marbles

I lost star and found stardom

I found me when I lost all 'em, yeah

I dream about you and I don’t know what it means, yeah

Some Jean Grey shit, I don’t know what it seems like

But I fell a fiend and rose a Phoenix, my flow the meanest

They ain’t get the vision, I always seen it

Fuck the scene, I seen what it does to people

So fuck it, y’all could keep it

I’ll die the meanest and live the nicest, I didn’t write this

I bombed the paper like ISIS

A bad vibe is in your words you not speakin'

I could peep it so I’m defeatin'

Anyone who think they runnin' this race that I started

With the baton they never gave me I’ll take it the farthest

I need million dollar mansions, you thinkin' apartments

Guess that’s what set us apart, dawg, you thinkin' in boxes

And I left that, kid from the West that

Said fuck dealin', no drug cured 'em, I’m stuck ill

And Wayne before prison too dedicated so fuck ceilings

And fuck feelings, in this cycle of life I’m one-wheelin'

Training-wheel rappers be braggin' 'bout how they never fallin'

Ain’t changed they number but wonder why I was never callin'

I call it spade-to-spade, hands I’m dealt

Bet I play blind folded and still Blackjack while I call your bluff

All these rappers you callin' tough, shit is all a front

I never fronted or backed down, it was all or nothing

Remember days that I ain’t eat and got a smaller stomach

Remember we was smokin' weed, they on a stronger substance now

And a lot of them turned they back on me

I left home with no intentions of turning back, homie

The drugs stopped workin' while I’m battlin' this

I was broke, all I had was reality checks

Losing people over business and they say don’t take it personal

It isn’t, but I’m startin' to think different

Yeah, but I started to think, listen

Fuck the dissin' and «Who's missin'?»

Remember why I even started this mission

I can’t do shit if my heart isn’t in it

My minds gone and man, that shit has been gone for a minute

But then again, everyone that I ever met up in this game shady

Ironic, I’m the one that they compare to Em

I played crazy and got lost in that shit

On some Heath Ledger shit but still he’d never quit

I’m from Painkiller Paradise, where E wet and spliffs all they know

I told myself that I would be better, bitch, yeah

Sometimes I wish I picked up a different profession

But how else could I deal with this built up aggression?

Fucked over so many times but I still been finessin'

Shit, sometimes I think I’m cursed but it’s still been a blessin'

I lit the fuse, would’ve been quit but got shit to prove

My shit list is a page or two

I charge it to the game and paid my dues

So listen, dude, I got shit to move

From the same hood as some killers but I got different views

I speak ill, it’s love, peace, but I beat kill each scale

Doc said I’m sick, shit, I agree still

I’m prescribed to real shit so here’s a free pill

Back-to-back like Meek Mill if you need a refill, yeah

If you need a refill

Hey, sweetie

Ugh, I’m sending you a big hug, my love

I was just thinking about you too

Just hang in there, just— just for today

Just for today, papi, know that I love you

Know that this too is gonna pass and it sucks

And I’m so sorry, I am so sorry, my heart bleeds for you

What you’re going through, all of this

You can do this though, I know you can

Just right now, need you strong too

I love you, I love you so much baby

Bye, honey

I’m all yours, all yours

And I’m all yours (Show me)

I’m all yours, all yours

I’m all yours