Текст песни Searching for Salim Omar (Adil Omar) с переводом

Never did my son not shine

Never did you lose your mind

I have always been with you

I did it all searching for you

I’ve seen my heart burst into two

No second thoughts about the words I could use

I’ve done it all searching for you

I did it all searching for you

Lost and terrified

Many nights alone in the dark

The Earth frozen from my bones to my heart

Watched you go out in a blaze like you had known from the start

I chose this life to fill the space that you had left me with

And gave it everything

My brain, guts, balls and my soul

To either rise above or fall in a hole

Abandoned everything, to go off on my own

And do anything to talk to you or touch you again

Even if it meant going insane, soaking the pain

Self immolation in the flow of the game

We both gamblers by nature, guess we both are the same

I threw the keys of my salvation on the ocean floor and got 'em

Imagine if I hadn’t, what all this could have been

A nose dive, failed engine and a crooked wing

Denied your presence for the longest time

And then I learned you always had my back along the lines

And as I face not only my demons but also yours

I saw your face staring at me through the corridors

Then all the pain it turned to blessing for me

When I learned you had a message for me

Never did my son not shine, uh

Never did you lose your mind, uh

I have always been with you

Show me what more there is to see

Cause when I found you, I was looking at me

Looking down at the palm of my hand

At the blood in my veins, I forgot who I am

Made of you, I’m a dot in the sand

But the same sand you are, I forgot who I am

All that time away, all that time lost

Can barely recognize the hell that my mind was

Singing in the choir of my own shame

My world burning in the fire of my own pain

Saving grace was the rhyme and the pen, uh

Survival mode from the time I was 10, I

Had to do all that I can, had to learn to be a man

So I could find you again, I

Check on mama as she sleep every evening

Hold my own breath just to see that she’s breathing

Cause when you lose one, you worry 'bout the other

When you feed a frequency of stress then you are bound to suffer

A basic truth, I didn’t have no one to teach me

And through these walls I didn’t have no one to reach me

And at my lowest I cursed God

A victim of myself as I drowned in the worst thoughts

Like a cunt, tried denying his existence

Lying to myself, creating my own dissonance

What a fucking idiot I used to be

Couldn’t sense that I was in for an awakening

What a fucking idiot I used to be

And everything it took just to break it in

Tried to look for you in other older men

But couldn’t read their silence

When I followed my gut

I learned I didn’t need their guidance

I can feel you speaking through me

I can feel you breathing through me

I can feel your very essence

I can feel it bleeding through me

(Family and Urdu dialogue — Bridge)

Baba, I did it

Now it pours from within

Won the battles on the outside

And the war from within

Victorious, glorious

And like the meaning of my name

I’ll make this story just

And since you brought me into this Matrix

I will honor you as Morpheus

And ever since I learned I’m stronger

Saw the dominoes all falling in perfect order

Even through the pain and the heartbreak

All the insight gained that this art takes

I am gonna change the world

Honor the spirit of the music cause it saved me twice

And while you got addicted

To the things that might have killed you

I got addicted to the very things that gave me life

And when I finally let you go, I wrote a song for you

Made my body strong and healthy cause I honor you

The kinda love a single being can’t contain

When I go deep within, then I know that I can call for you

December 26, 2001, I had my best friend snatched away

And when I learned we had a soul contract, there was no combat

I’m not mad at that day

Collateral damage for a greater mission

You always are my beautiful father

And even though it fucking tugs at my soul

I have no choice but to salute you as a martyr

And as this journey come full circle

My entire body hurting

And I’m feeling like I could be running outta smoke

Hungry and thirsty for all I ever wanted

But I found it all inside me

Like this was all some kinda joke

«My son, I am proud of you

For this is my boy

But life is a punchline, and this was the ploy

When there’s no mischief or joy

You’re just wasting your time and fucking missing the point

There is no fear and this isn’t in question

And everything you did, you did with my blessing

I am with you forever

I’ve been with you since and we’re in this together

All the rough edges, this was the lesson

But don’t take it personally, you bid what you’re getting

You are here doing everything you’re here to do

So in all essence, this is transcendence»

«He's in a very sacred place. A very quiet place in my life, in my heart.

And I don’t really let anyone else in. I can’t. I try, but I can’t.

Because I can’t, to me he can’t become absent

Oh wow, my baby’s had a baby, it’s a boy. I believe he’s beautiful.

He’s so little. You were very little, very sweet. And suddenly,

I became a grandmother. I couldn’t believe it. I felt that I was your mother,

not your grandmother

It was lovely having you. And when you arrived at the airport, and I took you

in my arms for the first time, I felt such an overwhelming love,

and everything just poured out of me into you

You’ve been somebody very special. You were always very sensitive, and odd.

You always had a very otherworldly look and feel about you. Very imaginative.

Which is not really what most babies are

Don’t be afraid. Go on, go on. We’re right behind you. Take it. You did the

most unexpected, out of the way things, that were not expected. And I was

thinking, this fellow will become a poet, or, I don’t know what he’ll do,

what will happen, because I was more worried about protecting you than

anything else, because you were so vulnerable, so vulnerable — in your own

little world, yeah"