Текст песни Suicide Note (THR) с переводом

I’m a bit afraid to say the thoughts made for this song

But my conscience is clogged and has been in anxious states for real long

My deepest, darkest secrets are about to crawl out of my mouth

To spout around the clouds that blind me which is why I’m driving south

While others flock to migrate north. I’m poor and lacking order

Waking up is hard to do when opened eyes are blackened further

So, I close them, hoping for some alteration of the color

Only shades of grey are painted in my frame of vision, covered

Mother offered me a therapist to hear me vent shit

Shared a «yes» and now I’m out of school for severe depression

Only during math class, in which I am half-assed

Every time I hike into Analysis, it’s like a slap match

And I know I can’t pass. I have no effort left

In general. I’m messed up and I need to take it back a step

I’m told to put my best foot forward though. Well, I can’t do both

Guess that’s just the way it goes

I’m writing this while still trying to put my album out

The first one, but I’m surrounded by this tragic doubt

That if I end up ending myself in the near future

I’ll have released something that explains myself clearer and lucid

My saneness airs out, yet all my peers are clueless

My brain feels cramps now. I’m nearing the part where I lose it

Feet being burned on the pavement, I still choose the high road

Which words used will be my final? Think this is my suicide note

I’m struggling with faith. After my days are done, where will I go?

I hate to admit that there’s probably nothing, but I don’t know

I’ll simply cease to exist, memories thrown to the wind, blown cold

My personality, my knowledge, all the things I’ve seen or owned

And every inch I’ve ever grown turns notional. Woah

You ever quit a mission as the chosen one? No?

Good God, I hope the Lord exists

He might be pissed at all these instances that I have sinned, and recorded them

I wish I could be Christian again

Living life filled with religion can give men clean beds to attend

I made my own. Now it’s time to lay in it

Hope I slip into a coma cuz I need the rest

Overwhelming distress causes weaknesses in my knees and chest

All I wanted was to be the best

Ended up mistreated as hell by my family and friends

Wake up next millennium. Maybe things will be different

I feel a vivid heatstroke coming up in the fucking kitchen

I’m baked slowly until I turn to smoldered crisp bits

Here I am at my threshold. Why don’t you take a listen?

Sink my teeth into my fingers instead of slit wrists

Incision’s too visible. Though, I got scars regardless

I don’t do drugs cuz I know I’d become addicted

Or overdose the second chance I get

All my so-called friends do stimulants, hallucinogens

Leaves me out of the circle, but I’m pretty used to the shit

I’ve reached my limit. Do you dudes understand?

I’ve reached my limit

I had to walk away for a moment to take a breather

Gaze through blinds over my window, fake a smile in the mirror

This room is getting heated. Gotta remove my blue t-shirt

I feel stupid. I’ve been screwed. This is student becomes teacher

Everything I know is seemingly self-taught. I probably

Only have one real friend until the end. I think you’ve lost it, T

All of these girls no longer want loyalty to monogamy

Alone. When suicide betides, at least nobody’s stopping me

This atmosphere is drowning

Out the sound of the passion for my humanity. Down three

Counts and still fastened to this mat, expecting the next round. Re-

Peat the beating for eternity, hourly

This sour taste in my mouth stays and outplays the flavor of glazed

Pastries and cakes any day. Why don’t I cleanse it with lead

Brainless neighbors name me gay because I praise, appreciate

Art in all forms. My sexual preference is intimate

Fuck my brains out before I blow it through my mouth

Numb cuz Yorktown pours down more crack, smack talk than Detroit now

Transitioned from Tabb to Grafton. These lasses in my classes

Act real proud, swanking their asses for the chaps without attachment

Cheating on their men, thus seeding in a trend of lust distrust

Love must be unreal. Women reel me in to leave me just distraught

Up in my feelings right as I begin to thrive and idolize

The kindness they’d provide until I find out about other guys

Some Mr. Brightside shit. Some Tyler Rice-type filth

My ties are sliced by slits. I cry goodbye like snip

Why…

Why try…

Why try if…

Forget it

Quit it with the instrumental. End in stillness, switch to limbo

Pillow still dripping, drenched from my whimpers and intense snivels

Silently crippled. I’m going mental, idle, and fiddled with

By negative thinking messing up until definite death

You know the rest. I’ll lay at rest

And gather my piece of mind for once in my life and I’ll feel my best

Something I’ve desired for four years. I might be tired…

Highly unlikely. Find me six feet deep beside no wife or

Lover of any sort. I’m retired

Here lies Tyler Holt Rice two thousand to two thousand seventeen

Bye. Diverge from viability. I win, finally

Climbing the high and mighty set of steps for decades

Finding no hope or delight so I’ll hurdle off by one-eight

I feel like the loneliest guy on Earth

No luck with love for someone who considers his looks a perk

Confidence matters little if populations rebuttal

I still don’t have the grit to ask attractive madams to cuddle

Unless established relationship status is known by the both of us

So no woman who isn’t specifically mine can move on lust

But I’m not convinced that love exists

My parents couldn’t keep their marriage above everything with hateful splits

I’d roll a spliff with «so-called» friends if I didn’t know the effects

I’d smoke until my whole lungs give and open to withhold more cigs

My reaction time is fast and fine while coordination’s more amazing

And anxiety’s already quite entitled to my state of

Mind at almost all times and my IQ’s high so no thank you

This pill bottle is looking tempting

I’m just some crooked dead weight, waiting for the light to take me

I can’t find a reason to remain on driveway pavement

I’ll stray away from home even if, for a minute, it’s painful

Seconds go by, unfasten my eyes

If I catch a glimpse of any image, then the dose was right

I’ve choked and died