Текст песни Impatience (Sha Stimuli) с переводом

I don’t want to wait

For my funeral

For me to realize life is so beautiful

I don’t want to wait for my wake to see that being alive is so great

I woke up from a dream where I was no longer breathing, I got excited

Five years ago I thought about bringing that dream to life

I guess to say I was depressed without knowing it’s not inviting

But the truth is that the proof of my pain was deep in my writing

Comparing myself to Pac was like, machete to pocket knife

Not saying I’m not as nice, I just wanted the spotted light

Shining on me any way possible, if that meant my cold body called it quits in

the hospital, then the time was right

How could the time be right for an early death?

I think the right time is using what we have left

Chasing money, I thought that equaled success

It took reflection of my records to detect that I was blessed

I mentioned riding the train, always embraced poverty

Talked about using girls for their cars, paper and property

Victimizing myself like the industry had it out for me

Said I wanted a spouse and a son, but it felt so out of reach

How can we, walk around with blindfolds, stuck in grind mode?

I was trying so hard to use my rhyme flow

Shine, glow, rise, blow, fly, float, high, grow, line shows up, and get wild

doe 'fore my time goes

I climbed over hurdles in the truest sense

Car, crib, wife, kid; now each day’s a new event

No more seeing darkness, switched my vision and removed the tints

Know you gaining strength when you curl what you used to bench

I don’t want to wait

For my funeral

For me to realize life is so beautiful

I don’t want to wait for my wake to see that being alive is so great

You don’t want to wait

‘Til your parent dies, and you masking cries

Wiping tears, can’t no one pacify you, the pastor tries

Half the time you roamed on the planet, you had a passive ride

Praying, hoping, wishing, but living just like the average guy

See you don’t need inspirational speakers

Or motivation from Oprah, or doctors changing your features

You know that life is a bitch when Nas and AZ was preaching

So keep your focus on your goal, and every day, go achieve it

Don’t wait until you sit in the waiting room, in a crazy mood

Nervous to receive some hellacious news, hope it’s April fools

People told me I had to lie to make it, they made the rules, up I had to break

‘em and make my moves

I don’t want to wait

For a better job, great boss

Tax return, new love, bigger place, weight loss

Mixtape dropping, you swear it’s gon' get you popping, or as soon as your

credit gets fixed, you bout to take off

It’s like waiting for Christmas to open presents

When every day is a gift that was pre-sent, it’s your presence

On earth, believe you’re worth more than money

You’re not a peasant

You measure yourself by salaries, that can be why you’re stressing

Look

Your New Year’s resolution is evolution, gym membership, that you never use or

the weight that you’re never losing, you’re gaining, cause your pain has no

retribution

The answer’s in the mirror, and yes it’s proven

The most expensive bed is your deathbed, you could be paid

It won’t matter how much you saved

Once you lay down and you’re on your way out, there’s no amount of money that

would make someone trade, I don’t want to wait

I don’t want to wait

For my funeral

For me to realize life is so beautiful

I don’t want to wait for my wake to see that being alive is so great

I don’t want to wait like I did with my dad

To tell him that I was bitter, not mad

He didn’t get to see me rap on TV or become a college grad

It’s like single-parent homes became a fad

I wish he was here, no I wish I was sincere when he was living

Or maybe just more enlightened to tell him how much I missed him

I didn’t need child support or even help with tuition

I needed adult support, so I could tell him my vision

I can’t wait to tell my mother, that she inserted love and trust

In a situation that could have been so tumultuous

Days I needed someone reminding me I was tough enough

And daddy wasn’t there, she would hold me down with a mother’s touch

I wanted a parent at my games that would cheer me on

I needed someone not to praise me, but hear my songs

Mama worked like every day, out there being strong

So the lights, grocery, and heat was on

And we ain’t miss a meal, but she had to deal with two sons trying to shine

At the job nine to five, we was hungry five to nine

Dealt with infidelity, fighting, domestic violent crimes and a car crash that

totally realigned her spine

So I can’t wait

To say mom you showed the deepest love that I can’t shake

I had to let her know it way before our last date, cause life tends to move at

a fast pace

God when I figured father figures were figures that didn’t bother,

to father they kids and live with ‘em, it was hard not to harbor on

Hurt that I felt inside when I saw that things would get harder

My brother was having kids, had the absent cycle revolving

And no, my bro is not returning my calls while I’m penning this

By the time it’s released, I pray there’s repentances

I don’t even know what I did to get off his friendship list

But either way I love him to death, he gave me an endless gift

He didn’t have to bring me to those Masta Ace sessions

Hung with Kool G, Craig G, great lessons

Met Kane, I met Marley, met Big, even played ball with Guru and Premier as a kid

But there’s much more than that

He excelled before he rapped, all-world quarterback, and then he ripped them

Slaughter tracks

My big brother, wasn’t Big’s brother but he was more like a distant cousin

Beats and rhymes, consistent buzzing, got a record deal cause he was real and

plus he spit disgusting, made me feel proud and inspired, and I’m still in the

oven, I’m not done

The love I have for my son

Man it’s hard to find descriptive language

My career was filled with anguish

Now I’m picked to raise a child into a man, to guide his hand to help him stand,

But I get crazy nervous fits and anxious

I want to tell my wife, that she was so right

For having strength, fortitude and yes the foresight

To walk away, cause on those dark, lonely, long nights

Loose ends evolved to be more tight

And I said it before, but looking back, I guess I wasn’t dumb

I chased a music mission, gave my heart to strings and drums

And truly she understood, it’s not to say I wasn’t good

But still she left me for the man I would become

And how she loved me then is hard to fathom, it was random, now this tandem,

We’ve created makes me rise and hold my heart, it’s like the anthem

With the rockets red glare and the bombs bursting in air

All the issues in the past we just surpassed them

Since she appeared, there’s not a pair that can compare

And it’s so rare, when there was storms of hate and clouds of doubt,

and cold fronts of despair

I had an umbrella, rain shelter, sunshine to clear, my way of thinking,

I was down and she was there

So please don’t wait! I don’t care if you got your ears closed

‘Cause I don’t dress like I’m a weirdo

I’m trying to find courage like the cat that was easing down the road with the

dog, Tinman and the Scarecrow

And that other chick, please make your bucket list

Tell your fam you love them, call somebody up for nothing, please reach out and

touch them

See when you’re born you cry

And everybody smiles

When you die you smile

And everybody cries

They say everybody dies

But their soul sticks together

I’m so thankful for this ride

Through my music, I live forever